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Friday, 29 July 2016

18 Weeks

July 23, 2016

18 Weeks! Not much went on in week 18 as far as symptoms go. I weighed myself and I am about 13 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. My old clothes are starting to REALLY not fit. The jeans I'm wearing are stretchy, the only ones I could squeeze into AND I still couldn't do up the button!

I'm excited to start feeling my little one's movements in the next few weeks!

17 Weeks

July 16, 2016
Week 17 was fairly good to me! I figured that baby must have been going through a crazy growth spurt in week 17 because I had to nap every single day! Long naps too. Having a bump is bizarre and my changing body is bizarre! Not bad, just different. I'm trying to get used to it being much more curvy. The great part is that I never had much for boobs before and am enjoying these bad boys on my chest (lol).

I started embracing the bump a little bit more, so that's nice! Also, I need to do these blog bump updates more quickly because I am almost 19 weeks as I write this and I can hardly remember anything from week 17 :O

Second Ultrasound

We had scheduled a 3D ultrasound for when I was 15 weeks 1 day and I am so glad we did! My mom and sister came with us and it was so amazing to see our tiny baby moving around on that screen. I was so excited for this ultrasound because I was so impatient to find out what we we're having.

The tech said that she's 100% it's a girl! Now, I'm not sure about that 100% guarantee but what a joy it was to find out! I always thought we would only have boys because Branden's dad and paternal mosom (grandpa) have only ever had boys biologically, his uncle has one boy, and his other uncle has 1 girl, but that's out of five children, so I just figured they don't have much of the X chromosome going around. When she told us it was a girl I just could not stop laughing and giggling! What amazing wonderful news. Me and my mom were so happy and laughing up a storm. Meanwhile, I teased Branden because he too thought it was for sure a boy. I even bought boys clothes when I first found out I was pregnant (just a couple winter outfits that were on super sale).

Of course Branden is happy with whatever, but I think he was a little in shock when he first found out because he didn't say much (lol). Now he rubs my belly and says "my girls" to us and it's just the sweetest thing. Watching his mannerisms and how my pregnancy is making him a dad is just too awesome.

Another thing at the ultrasound was that baby was measuring much ahead and by her measurements baby is due on December 24, 2016! Which is much better than January 2, 2016. Now, I still want a New Years baby (come on January 1st baby) but it's so much nicer to move my apps ahead! Based on my lmp my due date is December 25, 2016 so this is much more believable to me than January.

We are so excited to meet you baby girl!

P.S. Because our ultrasound was so early I will not be totally surprised if "she" ends up being a "he" and either way I know we will be so in love with our mini! Not long now until our anatomy scan with our doctor. :D

Friday, 22 July 2016

The First Trimester

When I first found out I was pregnant I struggled with who I wanted to share it with. I was SO happy and I wanted to shout it to all my closest friends and family, but at the same time I didn't want to share because A. as soon as my mom found out I knew she would tell everyone and their dog (bless her, she's been looking forward to my pregnancy for years) - and I wasn't ready for my co-workers to know, and b. I know some of my dear loved ones are struggling with infertility, and I wanted to be mindful of what they are going through. So we waited. I of course told my closest girl friends right away, because I needed them to be excited with me and so I could talk to them about it. They are the biggest bestest support group ever!

April 19, 2016 - 4 weeks pregnant
I was fairly lucky and my main symptoms in the first trimester were extreme fatigue, sore breasts, and smell aversions. I was so tired, and work felt like torture because I could barely keep my eyes open. Work was hard for another reason as well, I had a STRONG aversion to both the smell of coffee and the smell of smudge. The school is smudged every morning, and everyone lives on coffee (much like I used to), and oftentimes it would make me feel so sick. Not necessarily nauseous, but very unwell. April and May were so hard for these reasons, and at that time no one knew I was pregnant. 

April 23, 2016 - 5 weeks pregnant
I decided to share the happy news with my family on Mothers Day this year. I thought it would be so special to tell my mom she was going to be a Kokom again on this day. I was so looking forward to telling and and couldn't even wait. The day went by so slow! Even the days leading up to mother's day were slow. I was 7 weeks pregnant at the time, and three+ weeks of not telling my mom was pure torture! We told her to go sit on the couch and I gave her a little box. In it was a card (you can hear her reading it, inviting her to my first ultrasound), and baby's first moccasins. I think she was in shock ;)

The following Thursday was my first ultrasound! So dang exciting! Baby looked like a little grain of rice, haha! But, the tech showed us his/hers little strong heart beat, so that was reassuring. I was disappointed that baby was measuring behind what I'm sure was the due date. Because we were "trying" I kept pretty good track of EVERYTHING during that time. Not only that, I've tracked my period since 2011 (lol) so I know my cycle pretty good, and it's really predictable which gave me what I thought was a pretty accurate date for baby's due date (December 25, 2016). The tech gave me a dude date of January 2, 2016. Looking back I feel silly for being upset because of course the baby will come whenever they please, lol. But way back then, time was passing so slowly and I just wanted so badly to be past the scary first trimester.

The following weekend (I was about 2 months pregnant, May 14, 2016) we told my husband's family. He was so, so excited to tell his whole family. We were at a rodeo in Big Valley, it was night and everyone was sitting in their lawn chairs when Branden told me to go get out ultrasound picture of our little grain of rice. We just handed his mom the picture and let her figure it out. My brother-in-laws wife was the first one to clue in and she said, "you're pregnant!" and gave me a hug. Then everyone was cheering and exchanging handshakes.

Throughout May I was coaching track and field, and it was a little rough staying late after work to coach the kids. I was happy I did, but my exhaustion was so high, and it was wearing on me. It made me appreciate both mothers and coaches so much more. Every coach I've had during my time as a student athlete (and afterward with weightlifting) has been such a blessing to me and I often think about how grateful I am for their time and instruction. I was also grateful for a chance to interact with the kids a bit more. I work on the administration side of a jr/sr high school, but I loved any chance to get to know the kids at the school and I thought the best way to give back for all the coaching I received, was to help coach when I could.

I decided to tell my supervisors/boss at work at the end of May. I had originally planned to wait until the very end of my first trimester (end of June) to tell them, but my mom had let it slip to various people that she was getting a new grand-baby, so I figured it would be better if work found out through me and not through the community word-of-mouth of my pregnancy. I was also having a few appointments as I narrowed down a prenatal doctor, and being vague about my appointments was annoying me They were happy for me of course, and are supportive women for me during my pregnancy so I'm happy I told them.

I decided to tell the rest of my coworkers at a Staff Meeting in June, and wow, so fun! I could barely get the words out without choking on them (lol). For some reason in a room full of 25 other people I got a wee bit emotional saying that I was expecting my first child. My co-workers were so awesome and happy for me and I just love them for it.

8 Weeks || 10 Weeks || 14 Weeks

Apart from exhaustion and aversions I was incredibly lucky for my first trimester of pregnancy. I am so grateful for that. I did gain roughly 10 pounds during that time, and have stayed at that weight since. It was due to the fact that I went from an intense, and heavy daily workout routine, to barely any (heh, more on that later). I also had a high appetite before I got pregnant, and it only increased afterward. Plus, my digestion slowed down a bunch. I haven't gained much weight since and am hovering around 153lbs as of a week or so ago. I feel like I'm starting to pop out so I wouldn't be surprised if I'm a little bit higher than that.

We announced on social media near the end of the first trimester when I was 13 weeks on Father's Day (June 19, 2016). I am so excited for Branden to be a dad! It just makes my heart giddy when I imagine him with a little mini, girl or boy!

Thursday, 21 July 2016

Trying for a Baby

March 11, 2016. We had just arrived in Banff, AB for a ski trip. We were all checked in on the beautiful mountain resort at Sunshine Village when my husband told me that he was ready to take that next big step in our relationship. Babies! I could hardly believe my ears and I may have even asked if he had too much to drink (ha!). He was sure though, and remained sure in the following days and I was ready too. I didn't realize how much more I could love the guy but I was all starry eyed for him when I thought about miniature Branden's running around.  Half of him and half of me. It created something new in our relationship, and my love deepened in a special way.

"TTC" or trying to conceive is a crazy game. If you ever watched "What to Expect When You're Expecting" and you remember Elizabeth Bank's character, well that was me. The waiting is not fun, but it was so exciting and new.

On Thursday, April 14, 2016 I took a pregnancy test early in the morning, hoping so hard for a positive. I had already taken so many that week but I couldn't help feeling a little disappointed in the negative. That day I was going on a field trip with the Junior High students where I worked. We went to West Edmonton Mall, swam, had tons of fun, etc. I ended up buying another set of pregnancy tests that day and (being desperate and super impatient) took another test that evening. Very, VERY faintly, a second line popped up. My period wasn't due for four days, and you definitely had to squint to see the line but it was there!

I remember showing my husband and he couldn't really see it at all. Ha! I don't blame the guy, but I love him for hugging me and telling me "well if you think it's a positive, it's a positive!"

April 14, 2016. Okay, you really have to squint but it's there!
I texted my two best friends/sisters Naomi and Nicole and shared with them my faint positive. The next day (Friday) at work my sister brought me another test and it was negative. I was still hopeful though because it was a blue test and those aren't as good. The next day (Saturday April 16, 2016) I took a digital test and it was positive! Seeing that little "Pregnant" show up on the screen was such a sigh of relief! I was pregnant, for real, no squinting!

April 16, 2016

Now I am 4 months pregnant. 4 months pregnant! I remember being 5, 6, 7 weeks and they were dragging by. We (humans, or maybe just me) have this tendency to look forward in time and think about how awesome it will be "tomorrow" or "a month from now", rather than just enjoying the now. The days were going by so slow. We didn't share our news with our close families until a month after we found out, and another month after that before I shared it with my work, so I think that partially made the time go slower. On that note, it was very special to just have it between us. Our little sweet secret.

Next up: My thoughts and experience in the first trimester.